當我聽到 時，簡直不太敢相信，甚至不太想說出這個字， cuz I never thought you two would split. 曾經，你們讓我相信有愛得交往方是也可以像你們這樣，看似遙遠的距離，但兩顆心之間有所牽絆，但你們還是分開了，雖然我不知道原因，但應該不會是因為不愛了吧？應該是因為 you want different things. Am I right?
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我知道現在的我是關鍵時刻，已經有點難專心了，更無法在有心情波動的風險，但忍不住想要藉由部落格以及我的 brief diary 找尋分開的蛛絲馬跡，然後，讀到 J 以前的心情記事，我哭了...因為我一直在你們關係的旁邊，好像我也跟著你們在經歷這一切，所以這不只對你們而言結束，對我而言，也是一種結束，一種不捨...
They loved each other. And I'm sure they still do. But why then do they part? Honestly, I'm very curious and wish I could get the answer from either of them, although deep down in my heart I know that knowing the answer will not make any difference now.
The more I read J's blog, the more I am certain that they are meant for each other!! Though I do read J's uncertainty about her relationship in some ways. In this relationship, I often felt J's reluctance to change herself because of K's ways and habits, such as the distance that he needs, or that he doesn't want babies. J suppressed some of her wants deeper in her heart. I may not know her that well, but I guess I could feel it.
This, again reminds me of the plot in Friends, when Monica and Richard had a breakup because she wanted a baby and he didn't. They tried to change what they are/want, but eventually they decided to part, with two broken hearts of their own. They were brave.
And so are K and J.
但也許，以上我所猜測的也不是原因...I really don't know.
I was crying because I feared the chance of my having this heartbroken thing with GL. In spite that we love each other, we know there are some differences in us that just couldn't be overcome, not if either of us change. Will we also come to this end as K and J? I don't know.
But if we are going to part anyway, why creating more and more sweet memories each day? What makes two people stay together forever and what makes them part? Or maybe I know what that is, but I just don't wanna say that out.
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